School influencing my life.
My last few terms, school was great. This term has not turned out like that. I started a new job that is as confusing as the day is long. And then my partner and I are no longer together. That has been the cause of some major depression. I feel like Sandra Bullock right about now. Although, Jesse did have the nerve to admit it. Not everyone is like that. So class right now, has been the least of my concerns. Just getting out the bed and getting in the shower on a daily basis is hard. Going to work has been hell. Coming home and taking care of my family (now that my partner is not here) is a huge task. It's very hard to not just sleep, and sleep, and sleep some more. Because that's all I really do nowadays. I try opening my computer to do schoolwork. It's like I'm just staring at the screen waiting for I don't know what. The only thing I am able to do is go to bingo on Fridays. I wake up for that. Almost won this last Friday.
I know they say time heals all. No, I don't have proper APA citation for that. I am trying to be strong and not an idiot. It's always easy to have crappy self esteem and go back to that person. How much time is this going to take I wonder. Oh, well. I do apologize for all my negativity and non participation recently. I'll be good to go soon enough.
Sounds like a bunch of crap going on right now. I wish I had some wisdom or expert advice for you, but I don't.
ReplyDeleteHang in there, it will get better is the best I can do. My crap started about a year ago. We lost our farm and our home. I fell into a deep depression and starting drinking a lot. Since then, we have moved 3 times, and I think things are finally getting better. I gained weight, so I'm trying to deal with that and haven't curbed the drinking a whole lot yet.
Time.
Enjoy your family. That's helps, too.
Good luck at bingo! ;-)